Wanting back my personality

Its like someone’s playing a game

Pull it back yeah steady, take aim

Take a hit .. nice..

feel okay for a bit.. maybe twice

But why its really doing it you see

Is

Just to rob me of my personality.

Jack and Jill fight up the hill

Have a drink yeah or take a pill

Anyway they keep up the play

And all they wanna do you see

Without you having a clue you see

Is

Know they’ve robbed you of your personality.

So ignore the knock

Turn the key in the lock

Absorb the pain like freezing rain

Surfing the inevitable strain

Turn it into something you control

Get out the hole you’re in

And it

Is

Simply. You win.

Day 5 sober.

A Song…Don’t feel like a Shadow

Put on the slicks

Let’s get away quick

Outta here

this existence

Goodbye to bricks

No more the pricks

Outta here

This existence

Don’t feel like a shadow

Trying to exist in the shade

Am better than purple

Can be the whole parade

Given the chance

Given the change

Outta here

this existence

Sayin no to the noise

No to days I can’t think

To days it destroys

All the drugs and the drink.

Don’t feel like a shadow

Trying to exist in the shade

Am better than purple

Can be the whole parade

Gotta focus on love now

Gotta focus on us now

Only you ….can change. …Your. Days.

The beautiful French jardin…

Has a way of refocusing you. It’s taking your mind back to simple things that allows one some inner healing. Simply taking in the beauty of a rustic but elegant garden. To focus on the sound of the wood pigeon cooing against the constant water flow of the clear trickling stream that runs down the mountain flanked against a crystal blue sky, watching the hot and fast little lizard scamper up the tree in front of me. Smiling at the light brown beech leaf that is dancing its way around my feet as the soft wind flips it playfully. It is also shutting away the thoughts, fears and worries of last night. Putting them in a box for now and saying you just stay there. Stay.